Since I was a child, introspection daily before fall asleep for minutes becomes my regular habit every day. I’m fully confident if the decision made by that. Therefore, no other voice can break through my mind especially I believe I’m right. I even don’t feel sorry no matter how the effects becomes.
When I’m getting older, I found my decision becomes vary. Not because I’m wrong, but because things may have different factors. The decision made becomes more complicate base on my experienced. One day suddenly I found, how’s the decision made while I’m still young or inexperience? I may hurt people but even not aware of it!
Years ago, I got one colleague who just graduated from school. She is so young and full with trust with people natural, always good to all her related. I’m very worried on her and afraid someone will hurt her. After years go by, I found the people who around her treat her in good way even the choosy guys! Then I start to believe, the relationship between people can be good if the very start with trust.
Are humans naturally evil or good? For the one who hurt by me I’m devil. For the one who got help by me, I am angel.
The interaction is base on what we take and given.
People may change, people may make mistake. We need trust our heart not our eyes sometimes.
No matter how, everyone do deserve the 2nd chance.
4/27/2009
4/05/2009
A rose by any other name would smell as sweet
I like flowers. I believe every woman present each own style just like variety of them.
One of my friend told me that some guy who been layoff by me kept delivery a rumor, my position not due to my ability but an affair.
When he talked me about this, the first thing came across through my mind not angry but a yell, “I’m still a woman!”
And someone in somewhere still has men believes me that I’m still attractive!
When I figure out what’s ironic here, I became frustrated.
Why I lost my sense of woman these years? I’m just 40years old, not 70years old.
I work as a mechanical engineer for years in the past, even at that time I never lost my woman sense until now. What’s happening? I’m confused.
I went to facial beauty salon once a month, the reason is the treatment there can make me looks full energy, bright and clean.
The fortune teller said, with a bright and clean forehead can help my carrier.
Iit’s not for beauty.
I went to college for Yoga exercise once a week.
The reason is to keep a good shape can give others first impression not flabby and lazy.
It’s also not for beauty.
What’s wrong now?
When I planting the roses at the garden I realize one thing,
I need presenting like a follower not a gardener.
"No such thing can hurt my feelings as a woman! "
I will finally find my own style of flowers even I'm 40!
I told my husband the story and what's I'm learned.
He comments the accident in very brutal way,
“No such thing a man with power and great money would like the old woman instead of young girl!”
“Man wants a second lover not a second wife!”
@@#%^**… What’s a piggy!
One of my friend told me that some guy who been layoff by me kept delivery a rumor, my position not due to my ability but an affair.
When he talked me about this, the first thing came across through my mind not angry but a yell, “I’m still a woman!”
And someone in somewhere still has men believes me that I’m still attractive!
When I figure out what’s ironic here, I became frustrated.
Why I lost my sense of woman these years? I’m just 40years old, not 70years old.
I work as a mechanical engineer for years in the past, even at that time I never lost my woman sense until now. What’s happening? I’m confused.
I went to facial beauty salon once a month, the reason is the treatment there can make me looks full energy, bright and clean.
The fortune teller said, with a bright and clean forehead can help my carrier.
Iit’s not for beauty.
I went to college for Yoga exercise once a week.
The reason is to keep a good shape can give others first impression not flabby and lazy.
It’s also not for beauty.
What’s wrong now?
When I planting the roses at the garden I realize one thing,
I need presenting like a follower not a gardener.
"No such thing can hurt my feelings as a woman! "
I will finally find my own style of flowers even I'm 40!
I told my husband the story and what's I'm learned.
He comments the accident in very brutal way,
“No such thing a man with power and great money would like the old woman instead of young girl!”
“Man wants a second lover not a second wife!”
@@#%^**… What’s a piggy!
3/27/2009
The furthest distance in the world
The furthest distance in the world
Is not between life and death
But when I stand in front of you
Yet you don’t know that I love you
The furthest distance in the world
Is not when i stand in front of you
Yet you can’t see my love
But when undoubtedly knowing the love from both
Yet cannot Be togehter
The furthest distance in the world
Is not being apart while being in love
But when plainly can not resist the yearning
Yet pretending
You have never been in my heart
The furthest distance in the world
Is not But using one’s indifferent heart
To dig an uncrossable river
For the one who loves you
3/22/2009
Something different is good
The space of my car isn’t big enough for whole family to fit in, we was selected the one just for cost concern and children still youth at then. Ten years pass by, the car is old and the sounds can be heard everywhere especially when the wheel turns. I suppose it may the right to have a new car. Even though the world economic crisis are still existed not vanished.
We visited car show room this weekend try to learn more the newest car from them. As one of Toyota’s fan, their show room is my first choice. When we walk in their door the crowded people is first impression. It’s really difficult to sniff out the sign of money shortage. (“No salary paid vacation” may only happen at IP business.) My husband gives me that kind of “look” since when we go out from home I insisted we dressed in “casual”.
I only interested two breeds “WISH” and “RV4”. Unfortunately, I near in RV4 first therefore I put WISH aside all the way behind until I walk out Toyota show room then realize it. The RV4 really a high quality car, no matter you takes a distance look or closes it. It needn’t fancy equipment to decorate it, the quality can be felt from each tiny detail, for example the stitches of the leather car seat. They are tight and fit, all the curve lines firmly leaning by the seat 3D angle. What a beautiful! But since my husband and I seems not rich enough to offered high quality car, the young salesman just give us a politeness welcome.
The 2nd car was CR-V, Honda’s car show room Japanese brand. It wasn’t brining my attention at first; I walk in there just because my husband likes to take a look. When the old salesman talk to my husband, I felt very boring just walk around and check. After few minutes they talk, the salesman give us propose the test drive. It really a nice drive experience when the car so high. When he opened the roof window, ooh, I almost can feel the sky! Until the night, the salesman came over to our door give us the souvenir that he claims he forgot to give us that morning. What a smart guy!
The 3rd one… It was “outlander’ I even no patience do the outline check!
I’m here do the counting, does any chance my family afford another car? I told to myself, do more think about…
We visited car show room this weekend try to learn more the newest car from them. As one of Toyota’s fan, their show room is my first choice. When we walk in their door the crowded people is first impression. It’s really difficult to sniff out the sign of money shortage. (“No salary paid vacation” may only happen at IP business.) My husband gives me that kind of “look” since when we go out from home I insisted we dressed in “casual”.
I only interested two breeds “WISH” and “RV4”. Unfortunately, I near in RV4 first therefore I put WISH aside all the way behind until I walk out Toyota show room then realize it. The RV4 really a high quality car, no matter you takes a distance look or closes it. It needn’t fancy equipment to decorate it, the quality can be felt from each tiny detail, for example the stitches of the leather car seat. They are tight and fit, all the curve lines firmly leaning by the seat 3D angle. What a beautiful! But since my husband and I seems not rich enough to offered high quality car, the young salesman just give us a politeness welcome.
The 2nd car was CR-V, Honda’s car show room Japanese brand. It wasn’t brining my attention at first; I walk in there just because my husband likes to take a look. When the old salesman talk to my husband, I felt very boring just walk around and check. After few minutes they talk, the salesman give us propose the test drive. It really a nice drive experience when the car so high. When he opened the roof window, ooh, I almost can feel the sky! Until the night, the salesman came over to our door give us the souvenir that he claims he forgot to give us that morning. What a smart guy!
The 3rd one… It was “outlander’ I even no patience do the outline check!
I’m here do the counting, does any chance my family afford another car? I told to myself, do more think about…
3/09/2009
Setup
With experienced twenty working years, the kind mistake shouldn’t happen to me. Unfortunately, I still walk into the trap easily without hesitation, what a foolish!
It was just a regular supplier visiting day. The little different only is the visitor in high position which control all Asia headquarter for X company. As usual, we made greeting at first then exchange the comments we had last year. As a RD senior manager in IEC, my comments also got a very good shoot. When I told the poor service about X company, one member present from our side remind me need mentioned the cheated behavior happened in the project. The cheated issue is a fake specification the X company RD team was made. I still can remember how I was angry when I caught it. I thanks for his reminding, and talked the accident very directly. By the time while I was talking, I only can notice the VP is very serious listening.
After our conversation, the VP asked me provide him evidence, he trust my word but need this to take action. Since the atmosphere is very strange while he asking me. I realize it must something serious will happened after that. Therefore I refuse provide it, just pretending that I lost the file.
Until the night I was informed, the VP already got the evidence from “the other”, the curious thing was the “the other” not in the mail loop but their branch sales. Why the evidence ready just in time? I made a quick research and found all involved into the things has conflict with X company RD team and their GM. This is a setup just waiting for my first shoot!
My rational told me, if they not cheating at first then no chance to have them caught. However, I can’t tolerate is, how I become one of them without vigilance! If next time, the setup is directly to me, how can I avoid it? Is there any chance, I put my company in dangerous?
I woke up all night can’t sleep but think, how can I sense the trick in advance next time? This is a lesson learn that I first time have. “Tomorrow is another day.’ I won’t make same thing happened again.
It was just a regular supplier visiting day. The little different only is the visitor in high position which control all Asia headquarter for X company. As usual, we made greeting at first then exchange the comments we had last year. As a RD senior manager in IEC, my comments also got a very good shoot. When I told the poor service about X company, one member present from our side remind me need mentioned the cheated behavior happened in the project. The cheated issue is a fake specification the X company RD team was made. I still can remember how I was angry when I caught it. I thanks for his reminding, and talked the accident very directly. By the time while I was talking, I only can notice the VP is very serious listening.
After our conversation, the VP asked me provide him evidence, he trust my word but need this to take action. Since the atmosphere is very strange while he asking me. I realize it must something serious will happened after that. Therefore I refuse provide it, just pretending that I lost the file.
Until the night I was informed, the VP already got the evidence from “the other”, the curious thing was the “the other” not in the mail loop but their branch sales. Why the evidence ready just in time? I made a quick research and found all involved into the things has conflict with X company RD team and their GM. This is a setup just waiting for my first shoot!
My rational told me, if they not cheating at first then no chance to have them caught. However, I can’t tolerate is, how I become one of them without vigilance! If next time, the setup is directly to me, how can I avoid it? Is there any chance, I put my company in dangerous?
I woke up all night can’t sleep but think, how can I sense the trick in advance next time? This is a lesson learn that I first time have. “Tomorrow is another day.’ I won’t make same thing happened again.
2/22/2009
Ordinary Happiness
It was a sunny weekend. A beautiful weather good enough for people take actions at outside.I woke up early went to the nearest campus with my husband doing some light exercise. After that, we took a simple meal then another favorite weekend action start–gardening. Since the spring comes, my backyard gardens fool with weeds, some fence plants becomes irregular which need small rearrangement.
My fence plants combine with two different vegetations, camellias and thymes. Their growing speed is very different, thymes grows faster while spring comes but no flowers, camellias blooming at very spring. When the camellias line cover with beautiful pink flowers, it really an amazing sight view when look out from the window. Thymes have its own strength even no beautiful flower contains. When summer comes, the thymes will bloom with tiny follower which not easy to visible but you won’t neglect it because it full with pleasant perfume. Our particular action today is move forward the camellias line leave thymes stay alone with the fence.
It only takes two hours for the gardening work, after that, our hands dirt and body wet by sweat. But it stills an enjoyable choke. By the time while we do the chore, my children play around with ball, their noisy sound fill with our ears.
The sunshine wasn’t too hot just warm enough makes people can easily work at outside with short sleeve out off constrain by the winter heavy coat. Stay outside to embrace the warm becomes an ordinary happiness, thanks God to give me the capability to understand and enjoy this simple delight.
It was a very beautiful weekend.
2/15/2009
The emotional words in Chinese that can’t proper translate it in English
The difficult words that I select are "不忍", "揪心".
Although both them are very ancient writings but still commonly use today.
What is "不忍"? When we can see it in the phrase? People may translate "不忍" to “Sorry” in English most of the time, but “Sorry” can widely use on a lot of circumstance which can’t explain the feelings properly.
"不忍"only can use on sad scene in Chinese, particularly use to describe a sad emotion. For example, an outsider which witnesses a tragedy happen at a person or people whom are helpless to handle it. This kind emotion is sympathy that full with mercy and pity which came from human’s natural noble quality. There is no room for guise or pretend contain in it.
The emotion of “揪心” is thing may happened on you or related other which brings very strong emotion just like someone hold your heart and squeeze gently. It’s sometimes worry, sometimes sad, sometimes even cheerful but it’s should has a bitter start go along with serials tragedy then comes to happy end.
No matter, "不忍", "揪心", these two kind emotional words to me is very difficult to translate them in English. The main reason may due to my reading isn’t enough. Hope one day to right down a composition will be an easy and fluently work to me.
Although both them are very ancient writings but still commonly use today.
What is "不忍"? When we can see it in the phrase? People may translate "不忍" to “Sorry” in English most of the time, but “Sorry” can widely use on a lot of circumstance which can’t explain the feelings properly.
"不忍"only can use on sad scene in Chinese, particularly use to describe a sad emotion. For example, an outsider which witnesses a tragedy happen at a person or people whom are helpless to handle it. This kind emotion is sympathy that full with mercy and pity which came from human’s natural noble quality. There is no room for guise or pretend contain in it.
The emotion of “揪心” is thing may happened on you or related other which brings very strong emotion just like someone hold your heart and squeeze gently. It’s sometimes worry, sometimes sad, sometimes even cheerful but it’s should has a bitter start go along with serials tragedy then comes to happy end.
No matter, "不忍", "揪心", these two kind emotional words to me is very difficult to translate them in English. The main reason may due to my reading isn’t enough. Hope one day to right down a composition will be an easy and fluently work to me.
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