Because of work, I don't have much time company with my children since they still in junior school. I let after school's teacher take care of them even junior school. Everything seems perfect and peace with my daughter Winnie, I think Jeremy, my son will same situtation, too.
Until one day I checked his homework and found, he has trouble to identify "b" and "d". I'm surprised by the stupid mistake he made and yowled. He cried and replied, he hate English ever since I send him to "何x仁". Not only that, he hates any kind of coaching when it comes from female teacher.
I felt puzzled and weakness, I don't know how to do. I know I'm the one who should take more responsibility. I have no one to talk and discuss. The way I grow up seems can't copied to my son. I awake all night, the more I think the more I panic.
Finally, I pick up the phone call help from my father-we stop talking since 20years ago when my parents divorce.
After discussion, we all agree to let Jeremy stay with grandfather for weeks, let him closely ovserve what's went wrong? Weeks after, we made another communication.
My father told me, Jeremy needs just same as I am at the pass-parents' company. He learnt this from the previous marriage he and my mother, same mistakes shouldn't happend to me again. He also told me how he loves me and sorry for bad relationship we had previously.
After the disussion, I felt freash but strong. It seems I grow back from little girl again but fool with parents's support this time.
I agree my son's request -teach him English instead of after school. I understand my English ability isn't good enough for junior high school level, therefore I back to college again.
Dear Jeremy, I hope one day when you grow up will find, English is not that hatful. One day you will find our learning these years is more than English - the love connection pass through from grandfather, mother and you.