I’m afraid the feeling of unsuccess, so I try my best at every challenge.
To well prepare makes me succeed,
I also dazzled by the feelings that “I’m always right”(?).
The more I win, the more I lost. I become proud without sympathy.
I can’t tolerate anyone who slows down my speed.
One day I found, my son is the one who slow down the other.
The attitude which I throw at to the others just reflects on him.
I’m sunk in profoundly depression. I introspect myself day and day.
The poem “The Indispensable Men” was I found from internet.
I print it down stick it in front of my desk,
it reminds me in every minutes must not proud.
The Indispensable Men
Sometime when you're feeling important;
Sometime when your ego 's in bloom;
Sometime when you take it for granted,
You're the best qualified in the room:
Sometime when you feel that your going,
Would leave an unfillable hole,
Just follow these simple instructions,
And see how they humble your soul.
Take a bucket and fill it with water,
Put your hand in it up to the wrist,
Pull it out and the hole that's remaining,
Is a measure of how much you'll be missed.
You can splash all you wish when you enter,
You may stir up the water galore,
But stop, and you'll find that in no time,
It looks quite the same as before.
The moral of this quaint example,
Is to do just the best that you can,
Be proud of yourself but remember,
There's no indispensable man.
10/05/2010
9/28/2010
上學記
Because of work, I don't have much time company with my children since they still in junior school. I let after school's teacher take care of them even junior school. Everything seems perfect and peace with my daughter Winnie, I think Jeremy, my son will same situtation, too.
Until one day I checked his homework and found, he has trouble to identify "b" and "d". I'm surprised by the stupid mistake he made and yowled. He cried and replied, he hate English ever since I send him to "何x仁". Not only that, he hates any kind of coaching when it comes from female teacher.
I felt puzzled and weakness, I don't know how to do. I know I'm the one who should take more responsibility. I have no one to talk and discuss. The way I grow up seems can't copied to my son. I awake all night, the more I think the more I panic.
Finally, I pick up the phone call help from my father-we stop talking since 20years ago when my parents divorce.
After discussion, we all agree to let Jeremy stay with grandfather for weeks, let him closely ovserve what's went wrong? Weeks after, we made another communication.
My father told me, Jeremy needs just same as I am at the pass-parents' company. He learnt this from the previous marriage he and my mother, same mistakes shouldn't happend to me again. He also told me how he loves me and sorry for bad relationship we had previously.
After the disussion, I felt freash but strong. It seems I grow back from little girl again but fool with parents's support this time.
I agree my son's request -teach him English instead of after school. I understand my English ability isn't good enough for junior high school level, therefore I back to college again.
Dear Jeremy, I hope one day when you grow up will find, English is not that hatful. One day you will find our learning these years is more than English - the love connection pass through from grandfather, mother and you.
Until one day I checked his homework and found, he has trouble to identify "b" and "d". I'm surprised by the stupid mistake he made and yowled. He cried and replied, he hate English ever since I send him to "何x仁". Not only that, he hates any kind of coaching when it comes from female teacher.
I felt puzzled and weakness, I don't know how to do. I know I'm the one who should take more responsibility. I have no one to talk and discuss. The way I grow up seems can't copied to my son. I awake all night, the more I think the more I panic.
Finally, I pick up the phone call help from my father-we stop talking since 20years ago when my parents divorce.
After discussion, we all agree to let Jeremy stay with grandfather for weeks, let him closely ovserve what's went wrong? Weeks after, we made another communication.
My father told me, Jeremy needs just same as I am at the pass-parents' company. He learnt this from the previous marriage he and my mother, same mistakes shouldn't happend to me again. He also told me how he loves me and sorry for bad relationship we had previously.
After the disussion, I felt freash but strong. It seems I grow back from little girl again but fool with parents's support this time.
I agree my son's request -teach him English instead of after school. I understand my English ability isn't good enough for junior high school level, therefore I back to college again.
Dear Jeremy, I hope one day when you grow up will find, English is not that hatful. One day you will find our learning these years is more than English - the love connection pass through from grandfather, mother and you.
5/03/2009
TBD
(圖片轉自春田窯)
To see the season follower blooming is my wish for months, but it seems not easy to catch with.
My family CRV has a comfortable inside space which makes me more eager to go out for that.
Yesterday, the photo of travel column on newspaper brings my attention, numbers of flowers were blooming.
The tune tree aisle covered by thousands of white flowers; the falling petals just like flower snow the presenting picture was so beautiful just like a dream! I grab the paper show it to my husband than we decide to have a trip today.
The spot that we plan to visit is Sanyi which located in Miaoli County. Although the near Dashi has same scenic spots, we still decide drive farther considering about traffic congestion. The traffic problem becomes serious there. Years lately, Dashi is famous by the old buildings and well known to near citizens of Counties. The traffic especially in holiday is a nightmare, even well known every trails the native people like us has no way to go.
The children get up early; they are excited by the trip.
My daughter picks up some straw berries from the garden back yard as a snack before our way to go.
The day was so beautiful full with soft sunshine and tender wind. Even in boring drive hours we’re enjoyed.
The journey hours full with happy chatting and harmlessly teasing, lovely noise covering the car.
My family CRV has a comfortable inside space which makes me more eager to go out for that.
Yesterday, the photo of travel column on newspaper brings my attention, numbers of flowers were blooming.
The tune tree aisle covered by thousands of white flowers; the falling petals just like flower snow the presenting picture was so beautiful just like a dream! I grab the paper show it to my husband than we decide to have a trip today.
The spot that we plan to visit is Sanyi which located in Miaoli County. Although the near Dashi has same scenic spots, we still decide drive farther considering about traffic congestion. The traffic problem becomes serious there. Years lately, Dashi is famous by the old buildings and well known to near citizens of Counties. The traffic especially in holiday is a nightmare, even well known every trails the native people like us has no way to go.
The children get up early; they are excited by the trip.
My daughter picks up some straw berries from the garden back yard as a snack before our way to go.
The day was so beautiful full with soft sunshine and tender wind. Even in boring drive hours we’re enjoyed.
The journey hours full with happy chatting and harmlessly teasing, lovely noise covering the car.
We move to our destination steadily.
The pleasant atmosphere makes us talk too much and drink too much.
The pleasant atmosphere makes us talk too much and drink too much.
Sooner, we found out we must hurry up for the lavatory.
Murphy's Law did his magic again.
Murphy's Law did his magic again.
It happened before 2km of Exist interchange Sanyi, we run into serious traffic congestion.
Stuck in car line after 10mintues, the seconds just like years to us but we still away from Exist 2km.
We’re force to give up Sanyi Exist but heading toward to next rest area.
After an embarrassing confusion, we all safely pass the moment.
Our destination changed by the interlude, we visited Taisugar plant in Howli as an instead.
Stuck in car line after 10mintues, the seconds just like years to us but we still away from Exist 2km.
We’re force to give up Sanyi Exist but heading toward to next rest area.
After an embarrassing confusion, we all safely pass the moment.
Our destination changed by the interlude, we visited Taisugar plant in Howli as an instead.
Well, to see the season flower seems uneasy to me.
It’s may be a good excuse to make a leave while working hours.
4/27/2009
Prejudice
Since I was a child, introspection daily before fall asleep for minutes becomes my regular habit every day. I’m fully confident if the decision made by that. Therefore, no other voice can break through my mind especially I believe I’m right. I even don’t feel sorry no matter how the effects becomes.
When I’m getting older, I found my decision becomes vary. Not because I’m wrong, but because things may have different factors. The decision made becomes more complicate base on my experienced. One day suddenly I found, how’s the decision made while I’m still young or inexperience? I may hurt people but even not aware of it!
Years ago, I got one colleague who just graduated from school. She is so young and full with trust with people natural, always good to all her related. I’m very worried on her and afraid someone will hurt her. After years go by, I found the people who around her treat her in good way even the choosy guys! Then I start to believe, the relationship between people can be good if the very start with trust.
Are humans naturally evil or good? For the one who hurt by me I’m devil. For the one who got help by me, I am angel.
The interaction is base on what we take and given.
People may change, people may make mistake. We need trust our heart not our eyes sometimes.
No matter how, everyone do deserve the 2nd chance.
When I’m getting older, I found my decision becomes vary. Not because I’m wrong, but because things may have different factors. The decision made becomes more complicate base on my experienced. One day suddenly I found, how’s the decision made while I’m still young or inexperience? I may hurt people but even not aware of it!
Years ago, I got one colleague who just graduated from school. She is so young and full with trust with people natural, always good to all her related. I’m very worried on her and afraid someone will hurt her. After years go by, I found the people who around her treat her in good way even the choosy guys! Then I start to believe, the relationship between people can be good if the very start with trust.
Are humans naturally evil or good? For the one who hurt by me I’m devil. For the one who got help by me, I am angel.
The interaction is base on what we take and given.
People may change, people may make mistake. We need trust our heart not our eyes sometimes.
No matter how, everyone do deserve the 2nd chance.
4/05/2009
A rose by any other name would smell as sweet
I like flowers. I believe every woman present each own style just like variety of them.
One of my friend told me that some guy who been layoff by me kept delivery a rumor, my position not due to my ability but an affair.
When he talked me about this, the first thing came across through my mind not angry but a yell, “I’m still a woman!”
And someone in somewhere still has men believes me that I’m still attractive!
When I figure out what’s ironic here, I became frustrated.
Why I lost my sense of woman these years? I’m just 40years old, not 70years old.
I work as a mechanical engineer for years in the past, even at that time I never lost my woman sense until now. What’s happening? I’m confused.
I went to facial beauty salon once a month, the reason is the treatment there can make me looks full energy, bright and clean.
The fortune teller said, with a bright and clean forehead can help my carrier.
Iit’s not for beauty.
I went to college for Yoga exercise once a week.
The reason is to keep a good shape can give others first impression not flabby and lazy.
It’s also not for beauty.
What’s wrong now?
When I planting the roses at the garden I realize one thing,
I need presenting like a follower not a gardener.
"No such thing can hurt my feelings as a woman! "
I will finally find my own style of flowers even I'm 40!
I told my husband the story and what's I'm learned.
He comments the accident in very brutal way,
“No such thing a man with power and great money would like the old woman instead of young girl!”
“Man wants a second lover not a second wife!”
@@#%^**… What’s a piggy!
One of my friend told me that some guy who been layoff by me kept delivery a rumor, my position not due to my ability but an affair.
When he talked me about this, the first thing came across through my mind not angry but a yell, “I’m still a woman!”
And someone in somewhere still has men believes me that I’m still attractive!
When I figure out what’s ironic here, I became frustrated.
Why I lost my sense of woman these years? I’m just 40years old, not 70years old.
I work as a mechanical engineer for years in the past, even at that time I never lost my woman sense until now. What’s happening? I’m confused.
I went to facial beauty salon once a month, the reason is the treatment there can make me looks full energy, bright and clean.
The fortune teller said, with a bright and clean forehead can help my carrier.
Iit’s not for beauty.
I went to college for Yoga exercise once a week.
The reason is to keep a good shape can give others first impression not flabby and lazy.
It’s also not for beauty.
What’s wrong now?
When I planting the roses at the garden I realize one thing,
I need presenting like a follower not a gardener.
"No such thing can hurt my feelings as a woman! "
I will finally find my own style of flowers even I'm 40!
I told my husband the story and what's I'm learned.
He comments the accident in very brutal way,
“No such thing a man with power and great money would like the old woman instead of young girl!”
“Man wants a second lover not a second wife!”
@@#%^**… What’s a piggy!
3/27/2009
The furthest distance in the world
The furthest distance in the world
Is not between life and death
But when I stand in front of you
Yet you don’t know that I love you
The furthest distance in the world
Is not when i stand in front of you
Yet you can’t see my love
But when undoubtedly knowing the love from both
Yet cannot Be togehter
The furthest distance in the world
Is not being apart while being in love
But when plainly can not resist the yearning
Yet pretending
You have never been in my heart
The furthest distance in the world
Is not But using one’s indifferent heart
To dig an uncrossable river
For the one who loves you
3/22/2009
Something different is good
The space of my car isn’t big enough for whole family to fit in, we was selected the one just for cost concern and children still youth at then. Ten years pass by, the car is old and the sounds can be heard everywhere especially when the wheel turns. I suppose it may the right to have a new car. Even though the world economic crisis are still existed not vanished.
We visited car show room this weekend try to learn more the newest car from them. As one of Toyota’s fan, their show room is my first choice. When we walk in their door the crowded people is first impression. It’s really difficult to sniff out the sign of money shortage. (“No salary paid vacation” may only happen at IP business.) My husband gives me that kind of “look” since when we go out from home I insisted we dressed in “casual”.
I only interested two breeds “WISH” and “RV4”. Unfortunately, I near in RV4 first therefore I put WISH aside all the way behind until I walk out Toyota show room then realize it. The RV4 really a high quality car, no matter you takes a distance look or closes it. It needn’t fancy equipment to decorate it, the quality can be felt from each tiny detail, for example the stitches of the leather car seat. They are tight and fit, all the curve lines firmly leaning by the seat 3D angle. What a beautiful! But since my husband and I seems not rich enough to offered high quality car, the young salesman just give us a politeness welcome.
The 2nd car was CR-V, Honda’s car show room Japanese brand. It wasn’t brining my attention at first; I walk in there just because my husband likes to take a look. When the old salesman talk to my husband, I felt very boring just walk around and check. After few minutes they talk, the salesman give us propose the test drive. It really a nice drive experience when the car so high. When he opened the roof window, ooh, I almost can feel the sky! Until the night, the salesman came over to our door give us the souvenir that he claims he forgot to give us that morning. What a smart guy!
The 3rd one… It was “outlander’ I even no patience do the outline check!
I’m here do the counting, does any chance my family afford another car? I told to myself, do more think about…
We visited car show room this weekend try to learn more the newest car from them. As one of Toyota’s fan, their show room is my first choice. When we walk in their door the crowded people is first impression. It’s really difficult to sniff out the sign of money shortage. (“No salary paid vacation” may only happen at IP business.) My husband gives me that kind of “look” since when we go out from home I insisted we dressed in “casual”.
I only interested two breeds “WISH” and “RV4”. Unfortunately, I near in RV4 first therefore I put WISH aside all the way behind until I walk out Toyota show room then realize it. The RV4 really a high quality car, no matter you takes a distance look or closes it. It needn’t fancy equipment to decorate it, the quality can be felt from each tiny detail, for example the stitches of the leather car seat. They are tight and fit, all the curve lines firmly leaning by the seat 3D angle. What a beautiful! But since my husband and I seems not rich enough to offered high quality car, the young salesman just give us a politeness welcome.
The 2nd car was CR-V, Honda’s car show room Japanese brand. It wasn’t brining my attention at first; I walk in there just because my husband likes to take a look. When the old salesman talk to my husband, I felt very boring just walk around and check. After few minutes they talk, the salesman give us propose the test drive. It really a nice drive experience when the car so high. When he opened the roof window, ooh, I almost can feel the sky! Until the night, the salesman came over to our door give us the souvenir that he claims he forgot to give us that morning. What a smart guy!
The 3rd one… It was “outlander’ I even no patience do the outline check!
I’m here do the counting, does any chance my family afford another car? I told to myself, do more think about…
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